That night after Tibee and her sister left I sat alone in the house watching TV. The door burst open letting the cool air fill the house. I turned and saw Joe with a huge grin spread across his face. He was high, I just knew it. Joe walked over to me and started to kiss my neck, 'Lets go upstairs and have some fun.' I pushed him away and slapped him across the face, 'Im waiting till Im with someone that truly loves me!' I ran upstairs, slammed the bedroom door, and locked it. Joe yelled through the door, 'Open the damn door Abie!!!!!' I yelled back, 'WHY SO YOU CAN HIT ME?! LIKE YOU PROMISED NOT TO!!!' Joe yelled back, but louder, 'IF I DONT SEE YOU FACE IN TEN SECONDS IM GONNA HURT SOMETHING SO BAD YOU WONT BE ABLE TO WALK FOR A MONTH!!!' I grabbed my purse, walked over to the door, opened it, and ran as fast as I could to the stairs. Joe grabbed my arm roughly and pulled me back and threw me to the floor. I hit the wooden floor with a big thud and I let out a shriek of pain. Joe smirked, 'Thats what you get for running from me!' He grabbed a vase with daisys that were fading and threw it at me. I screamed in pain when the broken pieces of glass punctured my skin. I sat up slowly, brushing the broken glass off of me. Joe walked away and I let out a small sigh of relief. I got up slowly, walked into the bedroom, gently shut the door and wrote a note for Joe. Joe, I love you dearly, but youve disappointed me. I cant take anymore of your drinking and taking drug act. When ...
[By the time he was finished, I had tears falling down my cheeks. He quickly set down his guitar. He looked so panicked, thinking I hated it, it was adorable.] N: man, I shouldnt have sung it, Im sorry— [I leaned over and hugged him, cutting him off. ] S: thank you nick. It was so beautiful. [He moved so he was sitting next to me on his bed and pulled me closer to him. ] S: I dont know if Ive ever thanked you for always being there for me, sothank you. [I leaned up and kissed him softly on the lips. I felt him smile into it and run his hand through my hair as he slightly leaned me back. I still felt like I was kissing jonathan. That feeling was still there, but each time I kissed nick, the feeling faded more and more. In a way, that scared me, because I felt like it was all I had left of jonathan and I didnt want to lose it. I pulled away and smiled at him as he kept his forehead touched to mine. I looked to his open bedroom door and saw Frankie standing there with his arms crossed.] F: I saw that. [I blushed and looked down as nick chuckled and stood up.] N: then you better run. [Frankies eyes widened as nick started running after him. I giggled and stood at the top of the stairs as I watched them run down the stairs and around the living room. Their mom walked into the room and put her hands on her hips.] MRSJ: what are you boys doing? F: I saw nick kissing sa— [Nick clamped his hand over Frankies mouth and smiled at his mom. She laughed and shook her head, knowing full ...
[I knew I should tell him what I was feeling. I knew it was the right thing to do, I just couldnt. I shook my head.] S: it was nothing. [We got into his car and headed off to get some lunch. The next day, I was sitting in Julies room on the floor with my back leaning against the wall. I was looking at her across the room sitting on her bed. I sighed and looked to the side.] S: how terrible of a person am I? J: you are not a terrible person. Dealing with a loss is never easy. [My phone started ringing so I pulled it out and answered it, surprised as to who it was. Jonathans mom, Carol. I hadnt really talked to her since it happened.] C: we were picking up some of Jonathans things in his room and we found a few things we thought you might want. S: ohokay. When do you want me to come over? C: anytime is fine. S: alright. Thank you. [I hung up and looked over at Julie as I stood up.] S: I have to go. But thanks for helping me out. J: no problem. [Once into my car and headed towards the house, I started to get nervous. I hadnt been to his house since before he died. When I pulled into the driveway, I saw Jonathans car parked in the grass on the side of the house. I took a deep breath and knocked on the door. his mom answered and pulled me into a hug. I lightly smiled and followed her upstairs. She opened his bedroom door and pointed to a box sitting on his bed.] C: anything youd like to have from that box is yours. If youd like anything else, just let me know. Ill leave you ...
I drove back to Tibees, still with tears streaming down my face. I parked and ran inside; Tibee looked at me, 'Whats wrong?' I shook my head and ran to the room I was staying in. I pulled out my phone and threw it at the wall, not wanting any contact with anyone. Tibee ran in, 'What the hell is going on in here?!' I shook my head, 'He didnt want me to leave him..he tried..I miss him..I miss every bit of him, I dont care about the damn drugs and alcohol. I need him.' Tibee sat next to be, 'Sweetie, you dont need a man like that in your life, he treats you poorly, forget about him and move on.' I screamed, 'HOW CAN I WHILE IM IN LOVE WITH HIM?! I LOVE HIM SO MUCH! THATS WHY I NEVER LEFT HIM!!!' Tibee hugged me, 'Shh, calm down.' I pushed her off and ran out to my car, driving to the condo, hoping Joe would be there. I parked where I always parked in the garage and saw Joes car. I ran up the three flights of stairs to get to where all the condos are. I ran to the door and opened the door to mine and Joes to find him making out with some slut. It stung; it felt like a knife going through my heart. This guy said he loved me and was willing to change for me. And now I find out he doesnt love me and is not willing to change for me. Joe didnt notice the door open, so I thought it would be a nice treat to walk in and slam the door on his little party. I walked in and slammed the door with all the force in my body. Joe stopped kissing her and looked at me, who most likely had ...